Escapism

I know I am an escapist,
I believe I am an escapist.

I escape from people,situations and conditions
because I believe that I can't fulfill the surrounding's expectations.
From me people expect high,
but I always fall short on expectations,don't know why

Now I have found a new way of delight,
which my mind finds bright-
just escape when you feel you can't tackle,
escape and escape till you can't handle.

Though,I know this way life is surely not following the right path,
the path it has taken is gloomy and dark.

However now I think,
I need to come out of this shell and face the situation,
as keeping low self-esteem is no solution.
Its high time I should start expecting more from myself,
I think I should give another chance to my own self.

So what if my errors turn out to be the biggest errors of my life,
I would be content that I atleast tried.
Life doesn't give many chances to rectify,
So baby one should give it another try.

This escapism is craving for an end,I guess,
Hence,I should also expect nothing less.
Its for sure that life is much more than getting missed,
as its a spectacular gift!

:)